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| Can this really work for me? |
About 15 months ago, in the last days of what we now call 'the sketchy period' in my almost 19 year old's life (otherwise known as 18+ months of hell), I stopped going to pilates, and stopped using the WiiFit I begged my husband for. Begged. I just didn't have the energy, the willpower. I wanted to just relax and enjoy myself once the kid was getting residential rehab. Problem was, between the stress and the 'I deserve this' attitude, I've gained about 12 lbs. And I was a good 20-25 lbs overweight before. But I was at least in better shape before.
So much inertia ... but I have to get moving and make time to do the exercisery things I, well if not enjoy, at least like. The kid is healthy and living his life and is figuring things out as all kids his age need to do. So what excuse do I have? Why do I crave the junk so much, and avoid exercise like the plague...oh yeah I hate to feel sweaty...hmmm
But today - I finally had enough. I weigh more now than I ever have. I don't expect at 45 to be in the shape I was 20 years ago... but this weight has got to come down for health reasons alone.
So - I have a year before I take on a new administrative job at my university. One year to lose 40 lbs and get healthier and feel more energetic. I can do this. I've done it before (ok years ago when my metabolism worked better, but still...). I eat pretty well already (healthy, low fat etc). I just have to KEEP MOVING!
Started today getting back on the WiiFit. Did my 30 minutes (31 actually) of yoga and aerobics. Focused on abs, thighs and hips as these are my problem spots. Feels really really good. If I can do this every morning before my shower I'm golden...I feel energized and it will make me drag my sorry ass out of bed. If I couple this with a bike ride in the evening for even 20 minutes...
I have to do this. Now. I have to stop wishing and start doing. I think I should make this quote from Eat, Pray, Love my new mantra: "Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone should be".
Wish me luck. And no cravings for Cheese Puffs. Sigh.
Love the quote and Cheese Puffs can get you every time(turn your head when you get to them - it sometimes works). I've been trying to "start doing" for what seems like a long time now and slowly it's coming around. No huge results yet but you tend to be more focused then me so I know that once you start success, no matter how small, will be yours. Wishing you joy and happiness always. La.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the words of encouragement :) (Should I ask why you were up and online before 5am? shudder...)
ReplyDeleteSo far so good - just over 5 lbs lighter than when I started 2 weeks ago, and that is with a trip to Vegas in between. So far no cheese puff cravings...abated snacking urge with popsicles, diet Coke and LF popcorn. The diet Coke may kill me in the end but it does trick my head into thinking its getting a treat. Thankfully Barry is all into this too which makes it so, so much easier. If I can be 30 lbs lighter by Christmas that would be amazing! Have to see how it goes at work - the cafe in my college makes a killer chicken fingers and caesar salad but it is really hudge. I wonder if I could get them to give me a 1/2 portion (as an occasional treat). Been trying to stick to small lunches that are mostly fruit and veg and a bit of fibre to keep away the afternoon munchies. Any suggestions? I do have almonds for 'bus snack' - when I'm on campus I often don't leave until 5 or 5:30 and get hungry. 100 cal pack of almonds seemed like a really really good alternative to a bag of Lays :D
The exercise bike and the WiiFit have been good to ensure my daily 30 min, and we are looking into a membership at one of the local centres with pools. May join the JCC - ha! my grandmother will roll in her grave! heeheeheeeee! Best facility around and anyone can join, plus loads of our friends are members. Side benefit of living in our neighbourhood :D